Hello everyone (or the few people who follow me here!) I wanted to announce that I’m going to be archiving this blog and no longer post on it. This blog is no longer active, as i don’t have need for the same venting space that i used to. As I’ve grown and become more stable, found better friends and family, and learned to manage and overcome many of my mental problems, the things i used this blog to post about aren’t relevant to me any more. This blog hasn’t been super active for a while, but I thought a new year would be a good chance to officially confirm this change! I will not delete it, as I think it’s nice to go back and see how I’ve changed every once in a while, but the things i have posted here have become so different than the life i currently live that i feel this blog doesnt represent me anymore.
This blog helped me a lot through dark times, and thank you all for taking this journey with me! It’s been a long road but I’m so thankful that all the hurt I felt in my younger years has been replaced with much happiness, stability, and a hope for the future! I’d like to thank my friends, family, and girlfriend for being a constant source of support to me. When i started this blog around the age of 14 or 15, I was in one of the darkest places of my life. I have gone through a lot since then, but because of all the love I have in my life I’ve been able to overcome it! At that time, I could barely even make myself shower once a week, and skipped every meal I could. I struggled with self worth and image issues, eating disorders, intense anxiety, and depression, among other things. If i would’ve told the girl who started this blog that in several years she’d be enrolled in college doing something she loves, working in plant genomic research during the schoolyear and in conservation over summers, with prospects to get a PhD, and she’d be living with her best friends and an amazing girlfriend, she would never have believed me. I’ve gone from barely being able to speak to people in public to dressing how I want, presenting how I want, and being incredibly outgoing and making new friends and career connections every day! I went from self-harm and suicidal ideation to being able to believe in myself. But most of all she would’ve never believed she’d be so happy! I’m so glad i can look back on her today and thank her for getting through all of it so that i could have the amazing life i have now, and I never could’ve done it without that weird little girl who was a freshman in high school and just didn’t know how the world worked.
Thank you for being here for my journey. Remember to always believe in recovery, and if you’re hurting you’re not alone. Thanks everyone!! 💝
